Say Something I'm Giving Up On You

Dear Goo,

What should one do when all hopes and faith that one has are hanging on a thread?

Should one keep holding on? Or should one just let go?

What reason do I have to keep holding on?

When all signs and things seem to told me otherwise?

Love, you say?

Is it enough?

I'm not a quitter...I never am

But let's be logical here...

One has its limit, I've told you this. 

And I almost reach mine...

The most painful truth is...

I'm not happy being with you anymore.

Maybe this is never a battle that I'm suppose to fight for...

Yours?

Jane

Is It Just My Feelings or Is It Not?

My Goo,

Maybe it's the distance 

Maybe it's the busy schedules we both have

Maybe it's the nature of our relationship which is so complicated right from the get go

Maybe it's only my worries of losing you

Hmmm....I don't really know why...

But...I feel like you're slipping away from me

And no matter how hard I've tried...you feel so out of reach from me

Even further away with every passing day

Those small things that you used to do

The little things that seem insignificant to others but those could always melt my heart in an instant

Those small things...are now only distant memories

I never see those, never feel those, never experience those anymore 

I told you once before: "I want you to fight for me, for us. I want to see those efforts from you."

Unfortunately...I never see those either  

Is it just me? Or is it not?

What is going on Goo?

Are we becoming those couples who drifted apart and just went on our separate ways without even any goodbye?

Yours in despair,

Jane

Soundtrack of The Day - 10 Aug 2015

This is exactly how I feel today...

Jauh - Afgan

"Kau jauh

Mengapa t’rasa begitu jauh

Padahal kau ada di depanku

Tapi tetap terasa jauh

Setiap kali ku tatap dirimu

Kau buat ku sadar akan sesuatu

Kalau bayang diri ini 

Tak pernah ada di kedua matamu"

Our Milestone in a Form of a Medley

"Falling In Love At A Coffee Shop - Landon Pigg"

I think that possibly, maybe I'm falling for you

Yes there's a chance that I've fallen quite hard over you. 

"Jatuh Hati - Raisa"

Ada ruang hatiku yang kau temukan

Sempat aku lupakan kini kau sentuh

Aku bukan jatuh cinta namun aku jatuh hati

Ku terpikat pada tuturmu, aku tersihir jiwamu

Terkagum pada pandangmu, caramu melihat dunia

Kuharap kau tahu bahwa ku terinspirasi hatimu.  

"Mine - Petra"

Girl your smile and your charm

Lingers always on my mind I'll say

You're the only one that I've waited for

And I want you to be mine. 

"Love Someone - Jason Mraz"

Oh, ain't it nice tonight we've got each other

And I am right beside you

More than just a partner or a lover

I'm your friend

When you love someone

Your heartbeat beats so loud

When you love someone

Your feet can't feel the ground. 

"Knocked Me Out - Afgan"

Tlah kutemukan sebuah cinta yang kunantikan
Ternyata engkau yang slalu kutunggu..hiasi hatiku
Baby, you knock me out

(Tak bisa ku jelaskan) Betapa indah sanubarimu
(Sungguh luar biasa) Untuk diriku..kau mengubah hidupku
kembalikan rinduku.. Baby, you knock me out

Could this be that real love I've been missing? before I've met you
You're out of this world, my kind of girl..you knock me out. 

"Missin' You Like Crazy - Us The Duo"

When we're not together I think about you all the time

I keep your picture in my wallet to remind me that you're mine

Life is not worth livin' unless you're right here by my side

I'll love you now and forever and until the day I die

Tired of being alone, calling you on the phone

I'd rather have you here with me. 

"Love Is You - Ten2Five"

Let me love you
With all my heart
You are the one for me
You are the light in my soul
Let me hold you
With my arms
I wanna feel love again
Cuz I know
Love is you

"I Will Wait For You - UsTheDuo"

No one can choose who they fall for

Or when they fall, or how they fall, or why

I, well I fell for you and I must wait

it's only a matter of time

I will wait for you my darling

and I will wait for you. 

"Take Me Home - UsTheDuo"

I'm only happy when I'm with you

Home for me is where you are.

I try to smile and push on through.

But home for me is where you are.

They tell me that I'll make it.

It'll only be a while.

But a while lasts forever

Without you...

Send out the alarms

I'm all alone

Wrap me in your arms

Take me home

Take me home

To your arms...

I won't be happy 'till I'm with you

Home for me is where you are.

These four walls are nothing without you.

Home for me is where you are.

Soundtrack of The Day - 12 April 2015

Raisa - Jatuh Hati

"Ada ruang hatiku yang kau temukan
Sempat aku lupakan kini kau sentuh
Aku bukan jatuh cinta namun aku jatuh hati

Ku terpikat pada tuturmu, aku tersihir dirimu
Terkagum pada pandangmu, caramu melihat dunia
Kuharap kau tahu bahwa ku terinspirasi hatimu
Ku tak harus memilikimu,tapi bolehkah ku selalu di dekatmu

Ada ruang hatiku kini kau sentuh
Aku bukan jatuh cinta namun aku jatuh hati"

Am Going Home

Dear Goo,

I finished the trip and am going home tomorrow, finally...
I wanna see you, can we?

Something bothering me today.
I have this aching feeling deep within my heart, that something bad is gonna happen.
And I can't seem to shake it off
It's bothering me...it really did.

I wanna see you...
Please Goo.

Yours in despair,
Jane

Will You Goo?

Dear Goo,

Another day in the airport...am beginning to hate this.
You're in town but am out of town, well...that sucks.
Makes us value every chance we can get of being together, huh?

I can't sleep last night, being in a different city every single night really gets me hard.
This is worse than a jet lag, am disoriented, forgetting of what city I am now at.
And I miss you terribly...so, dunno why, I re-read our old messages, back to the beginning of our story. Feels like time traveling.

In a way, I guess that I needed it...
Cause my heart begins to weaken and faded.
It's not that my feelings for you have changed or anything.
It just tired I think.
Tired of being lonely, tired of being apart from you, tired of facing everything by my self.
I'm not used to it, I'm not equipped to this kind of relationship.
Cause I never been in one.

We both know that it would be hard, right from the beginning.
I know that it will be hard but maybe I just thought that it may not be this hard.
To be honest with you Goo, I lost faith sometime and considered of giving up.
But...when I look back and think about everything, about you, about us...I found a little piece of courage and it made me wanna fight some more battles.
I want you...that simple.

I'm willing to face pretty much anything.
I'm willing to deal with any kind of heartache.
I'm willing to fight.
I really wanna make us work.

What about you Goo?
Will you face it with me?
Will you deal it with me?
Will you fight this with me?

I love you Goo...with every fibre of my being, I love you too much, I don't wanna lose you.

I gotta go now, time to catch another flight.
Talk to you soon.

Yours in despair,
Jane