Soundtrack of The Day - 12 April 2015

Raisa - Jatuh Hati

"Ada ruang hatiku yang kau temukan
Sempat aku lupakan kini kau sentuh
Aku bukan jatuh cinta namun aku jatuh hati

Ku terpikat pada tuturmu, aku tersihir dirimu
Terkagum pada pandangmu, caramu melihat dunia
Kuharap kau tahu bahwa ku terinspirasi hatimu
Ku tak harus memilikimu,tapi bolehkah ku selalu di dekatmu

Ada ruang hatiku kini kau sentuh
Aku bukan jatuh cinta namun aku jatuh hati"

Am Going Home

Dear Goo,

I finished the trip and am going home tomorrow, finally...
I wanna see you, can we?

Something bothering me today.
I have this aching feeling deep within my heart, that something bad is gonna happen.
And I can't seem to shake it off
It's bothering me...it really did.

I wanna see you...
Please Goo.

Yours in despair,
Jane

Will You Goo?

Dear Goo,

Another day in the airport...am beginning to hate this.
You're in town but am out of town, well...that sucks.
Makes us value every chance we can get of being together, huh?

I can't sleep last night, being in a different city every single night really gets me hard.
This is worse than a jet lag, am disoriented, forgetting of what city I am now at.
And I miss you terribly...so, dunno why, I re-read our old messages, back to the beginning of our story. Feels like time traveling.

In a way, I guess that I needed it...
Cause my heart begins to weaken and faded.
It's not that my feelings for you have changed or anything.
It just tired I think.
Tired of being lonely, tired of being apart from you, tired of facing everything by my self.
I'm not used to it, I'm not equipped to this kind of relationship.
Cause I never been in one.

We both know that it would be hard, right from the beginning.
I know that it will be hard but maybe I just thought that it may not be this hard.
To be honest with you Goo, I lost faith sometime and considered of giving up.
But...when I look back and think about everything, about you, about us...I found a little piece of courage and it made me wanna fight some more battles.
I want you...that simple.

I'm willing to face pretty much anything.
I'm willing to deal with any kind of heartache.
I'm willing to fight.
I really wanna make us work.

What about you Goo?
Will you face it with me?
Will you deal it with me?
Will you fight this with me?

I love you Goo...with every fibre of my being, I love you too much, I don't wanna lose you.

I gotta go now, time to catch another flight.
Talk to you soon.

Yours in despair,
Jane

Live : From 23.000ft Above The Ground

News update from 23.000ft above the ground : we're happy. 

Yes...indeed we are. 

One of those perfect weekend getaway. 

Stealing time from our daily routine, it's nice...something new, something different. 

Hhmmm....it's....something. :)

Our ups for today : maximum time for us and us alone. 

Our downs for today: it's time to go back home. Welcome back real life. 

But hey...no biggie. We're still grateful..

Every moment, every second counts. 

From up in the air *flying above the clouds* we send you our love,

Jane and Goo

Our First Fight

This is the story about our first fight. 

Just like any other couples, we had our low moments too, we fight. 

But in our case, we'd like to avoid any kind of fight in anyway possible. 

Cause we have very limited time to spend together, so why spoil it with arguing, bitching and fighting. 

But it's bound to happen...and it did. 

Goo was on his week off and in town for a week but fate was not in our favor at the time, I had to leave town for a few days. 

So we decided to spend a day together right before my departure date. 

I took a day of leave from work so we'd have more time. 

He got caught up with work and said that he'd be running late. 

And so I've waited...and waited some more...a lot more actually...like 5 hours to be exact. 

I really don't like waiting, cause it's a completely waste of time in my opinion. 

But for him, I don't mind...but not for 5 hours...my patience was running out. 

I exploded with fury by the time he finally showed up. 

I said all the things that upset me and said that I need time to cool off. 

He sat under a tree and I walked around the park aimlessly, literally walked around the park, like round and round. 

And once I've cooled off, I walked back towards him then said...

"Okay, am calm now. Let's talk"

What he said afterwards really took me by surprise...

"Fun fact...it took you 884 steps for you to finally calm down"

"You were watching me?" I replied. 

"Of course...I worried you might fall down or something"

*Note to readers : I was a bit drunk at that time after having few cocktails while waiting for him.*

"But....I thought that you were playing with you phone" I responded. 

"No...I was just holding my phone so you'd thought that I was busy with something. I didn't take my eyes off of you the entire time you walked around the park" He explained. 

"And you were counting my steps, why?" I asked. 

"I don't know why either. I just did" He answered. 

You see...Goo can be very unattentive most of the time but then he would do something like that and took me by surprise. 

And with that...I instantly forgot about wasting 5 hours, totally forgot about my anger and I kissed him. 

That 884 steps that matter...

That unexpected acts that he did sometime...

That small things...

Melt my heart and he wins my heart over and over. 

Cheers,

Jane

Bring It On

I've been away for too long from this blog. 

Some kind of a writer's block you may call it. 

Or maybe, I'm just not feeling that cheesily romantic... :)

It has been a very hard few months for Goo and I. 

Our workloads are crazy beyond believe. 

And despite stealing a little time here and there to have our quality time, somehow...it's still hard for us. 

But I guess that what makes our relationship stronger. 

Cause long distance relationship makes every problem even more complicated. 

A little miscommunication can lead us to a fight. 

This relationship makes us wiser, more mature and more considerate towards each other. 

We often set aside our ego and make compromises cause we think that it's the key. 

I'm grateful...for every ups and especially downs that Goo and I have. 

If it means that we need to work twice as harder compare to anyone else, well then...bring it on. 

We're ready...!

Cheers,

Jane

Happy Happy Happy and Three More Times Happy

Someone asked me not so long ago. 

"Are you happy Jane?"

It was difficult for me to answer that in a heartbeat. 

Considering a lot of things, how can one be trully happy really?

Human being never felt satified of anything they have. 

I always thought that I will be happy if I can make the people I love happy. 

But, how can we ever make them happy if we are not happy ourself?

So the key of happiness is only ourself right?

I realize something today...

Simple things in my life made me realize that I AM happy...

So, to answer your question :

Yes, I am happy. 

That simple. 

Yours,

Jane