Thursday, January 2, 2014

First Test : Day 3

I feel so stupid for acting like this. 
Needy, cranky and desperate. 
All the things that I never want to be as a person. 
I dont like this for one bit. 

So, I made a decision. 
I'm gonna respect this 'distance'. 
Cause I'm on the verge of not caring. 
It is just simply too painful for me. 

And I'm preparing for the worst to come. 
Understanding the risk that I might lose you. 
So whenever you're ready, I really think that we need to have a serious talk. 

Come what may...

Your Jane 
(who's trying to be tough)

Wednesday, January 1, 2014

First Test : Day 2

This is so not the way to start a new year. 
Desperate attempts on distracting my mind off of you. 
All failed miserably...

We were in such a good place before you left and I really dont know what went wrong. 
We were happy, werent we?

Please call me Goo
Ease this torture of not knowing
I'm waiting for any sort of news from you....

I'm still here
The same old Jane. 

First Test : Day 1

I'm going crazy of not knowing
I've kept checking my phone
Jump to pick up my phone everytime it rings, hoping it was you...
But my heart sunk further when I read the caller ID and it's not you

Where are you?
What are you doing?
I miss you...

Are you thinking of me Goo?
Do you miss me too? Just as much as I miss you?

I juat dont understand why we have to do this stupid thing. 
Isnt it hard enough being apart thousand miles away?
It's not like we need to add more distance between us. 
Why do we need to stay out of touch from each other?
What is it going to proof anyway?

I've kept having this feeling that I might lose you after this. 
That you might come back as a completely different person.
That you're no longer my Goo...

Uuurrgghh...I hate this Goo...
So much!

I miss you...

Sunday, December 29, 2013

Soundtrack of The Day - 29 Dec 2013

Our song...
All of me - John Legend

"'Cause all of me Loves all of you
Love your curves and all your edges
All your perfect imperfections
Give your all to me
I'll give my all to you
You're my end and my beginning
Even when I lose I'm winning
'Cause I give you all of me
And you give me all, all of you"

I love all your perfect imperfections sweet Jane...

Yours as well,
Goo

All of Me Loves All of You

Woke up with a smile on my face, a wide smile that was...
The thoughts of what lies ahead on this very day excites me. 
Our 1st anniversary. 

Getting ready, dressing up, putting on make up were never been this fun. 
Gavin Degraw self titled album is blaring from my stereo, giving me extra chirpy mood to my already great mood. 

Pull out my little black dress and black peep-toe pumps from my closet. 
Letting my straight hair falls naturally without too much effort into it. 
Checking my make up one last time, making sure it's not too much. 
No need to put on lip gloss or something, I love my natural red lips. 
Adding gold and silver bangles to my right hand as finishing touch. 
Okay...am ready now. 
I wanna look nice for you and only you...

6pm on the dot my phone started ringing, it was you telling me that you're pulling over in front of my house. 
"Come on inside and meet my parents first before we go okay?"

And off we go...you're still not telling me where we're going but I dont mind. 
For this one time, I'll let you surprise me. 

I enjoy the ride over, it gives us time to talk and catch up on stories, make jokes and laugh a lot. 
Started out as one of the greatest day of my life. 

You're entering one of the tallest skyscrapper in town and I noticed that you looked even nerveous than I am. 
You lead me to an elevator and pressed 45.
Okay, high up we go, I thought to my self. 
My heart is beating faster and seems to be running 100 miles/hour inside my chest. 
Ding...the elevator door opens up, we stepped out of it and then I froze on my first step. 

Inhaling deep, i feel the need to take in as much as oxygen I can get into my lungs. 
There I was looking at the most breathtaking view that I ever seen in my whole life. 
The view of our beloved city up above with millions of lights stretch ahead, it was magical. 
This is what I've been wanting in most of my adult life, seeing the city up high and its beautiful citylights. 
I am in awe...

Dinner was splendid, the meal, the wine and you...
Just when I thought that the day is perfect and it may not get any more perfect than this, I heard the pianist plays the intro of our song and within seconds the lady singer sings...
Our song..."All of Me - John Legend"
And happy tears start filling up my eyes. 

I said to you in almost a whisper : 
"I love you Goo, all of me loves all of you. Thank you..."



 


Thursday, December 19, 2013

Our 1st Anniversary

My Goo,

I can't believe the day has finally come
Super excited!
It still amazes me that we could make it to one year...
Our 1st anniversary...! Yeeaay..!

I'm so curious for what u've planned for this day
I know that u've been planning it well
And normally I'm the planner in this relationship... :)

Okay...gotta get ready now
I'll see you in a bit

Love u so...

Yours,
Jane

Friday, November 8, 2013

Simple but not so simple

My Goo,

I miss you...
A simple feeling that's never simple. 
I need you next to me
That's a selfish part of me saying...
Just this once, let me be selfish. 
I miss you...terribly so.

Yours,
Jane